i guess i seriously made a wrong decision...as in whether to come to a JC or poly.....my first thought was that JC would be tough with all the GP papers and everything, now i start to realise that poly might not be such a good choice after all.....
maybe is the course that i am in, the people in the class are like pros who are able to understand whatever the lecturer or tutor has said.....but i amm like there struggling to keep up...what to do???
besides it is so stresssful to study in a poly....i reached home at like 6 plus almst daily, then there is this CCA,'klavienensemble'(dun really remember the spelling) in other words it is just a piano club...the cca starts at like 6.30pm on every wednesday...thus by the time i reached home it will be like wow earliest would be 11pm....where everyone in the family is asleep.....
with all the tutorials and projects coming up, i seriously think when i will juz break down or sth.....this is just so sian....maybe i might fail my modules and have to retain....then it will affeect my everything.............i guess......
well,this is really just .....well dun really know how to put it into words, finding someone to talk to but dun really know, want to tell e parents but dun wan to add stress on them....it is already so expensive to study in a pol and such, still pressurise them, maybe one day i might just go and end my life somehow.....will it be better.......
it is week 5 le, the exams are coming le....prepare and more more preparation.......my like is all bout studies now.........studying and more studying.........adults often tell the younger generation to cherish their time spent in sch, we will regret not putting in our best when we are grown up.....i guess this might be true in a way or another...pple often look back and believe that whatever that they have been through in the past will be better than whtever they are doing now.....well still nursing the flu...haix hope i will mak eit through at least for the first semester.............................................................
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aiya. u arh. seriously. though regret le. but u cant always say u regret. i noe it's tough. cos i'mm oso going thr e same thingy la. haix. mine is not smart arh. is smart plus hardwking. aiya. i oso dun reali care. cant reali catch a thingy e cher says. aniwaes. dun worry too much la. if tutorials dun do it's okies de. cos u'll jux hv to listen to wad e cher says. no needa reali go do. roughlt noe e ans is gd alrdy. hmm. i dunno whether my comment will hlp not la. but hmm. jux relax. dungive urself such pressure. it's not gd for both physical and mental health.=)
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